Advent Calendar 2015

Love, love, love...

I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you.

I never seem to say it enough... make it sound like I mean it. Because I love you so much, so deeply, so... You know, "amour fusionnel". Our love is so precious because it's so pure, lustful, passionate, true, painful, joyous, adoring, hot, burning, insane, patient, amazing, beautiful, everlasting, bright, enduring, unwavering, blissful, astonishing, shameless, aching, raw, intense, right, tender, romantic, eager, strong, stunning, giddy, rich, daunting, consuming, non-judgemental, ecstatic, freeing, boundless, delicious, divine, honest, sensual, devoted, enveloping, stirring, cherishing, deep, surprising and... I'm running out of words and I'm still so far from actually depicting how we feel toward each other.
I once read a cheesy thing about the difference between being in love and loving. It was kinda crappy and actually didn't make any sense for the most part but it made me think about a point worth making! I'm not going to ponder on whether "being in love" and "loving" are synonyms or not but I'm going to tell you what I thought about.
There's love and Love.
There's love as in an infatuation. Because of the craving for feeling loved, feeling needed and not lonely. This kind of love is not based on feelings but mostly complacency. You are not actually feeling for the other person, but for yourself - it could be anyone else, it'd feel the same, because it's only self-centered. It's easy to blindly pretend it's actual love and that you're happy, but I guess it's the same happy as the one you get when you succeed for yourself. We both went through that kind of relationships, so you know what I mean.
Then there's Love. That's us. And I don't need to add anything else because we both understand the point I just made.
Okay, fine, I'll still add something: everything is different with Love. It's the unknown. It's accepting that your better half's feelings are coming first, and that you can't feel happy for yourself if you're not making the other one happy. It's, at times, wanting to be selfish and ending up being selfess. It's not even a matter of choice, but of need. And when you realize what's happening it's the best feeling. A feeling I can tell I've never known before...
But enough with the cheesiness, you're going to get bored with me. Like, you're so done with me right now, aren't you? ❤

Just a random thing

So I came accross an offer today which is like, pretty interesting and I thought I'd dump it on today's calendar before I forgot to dump it on Skype (cuz you know I'd have to wait for you to be home and on your computer!). So here it is! It's a bunch of quite useful freebies and since I know you're into graphic design and video editing and stuff and that you do it really well, I thought you might like it!

Waiting for you to get home...

Well obviously, considering the previous cheesiness, you can tell I'm missing you quite badly. I miss you whenever you're not around so that only makes sense though, right? ❤ Ah well, you'll back home soon. I cannot wait to hear you tell me about your day!
I love it when you tell me everything you did and plan to do. It's so nice. I am so thankful when you share things with me this way. Clingy feels~ Aaah, sorry... But I like to listen to your plans and sometime give you my opinion or help you pick or or... It just feels great. It amusing cuz it's a bit like a routine, and I hate routine. But what makes it different is that you tell me the tiny details which make each day so very special and, well. Please never stop telling me about your days and your plans, it matters so much to me ❤

Today's Chocolate

Today's chocolate is nothing. Well, not nothing as in nothing, but nothing as in a very petty thing ❤ petty yet meaning so much, I hope. We tell each other we love each other and we kiss each other so much, but it doesn't mean I shouldn't do it once more. It's just like december 4th - if you ever need to hear me say I love you and cannot, well, now you can.